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Julio 27, 2005
slow choosing
Grape soda will not quench even a weak thirst
You would do better to sit still and watch a good movie to take your mind off thirst entirely.
I'm just saying, is all.
In fact, I am finding that it takes a great deal of thinking to figure out what I want when I want something. And, do you think I could be the only person who has this problem?
My students are not like this. They give names to the things they want-and right away. (They are still pretty small.)
I am getting to be a slow chooser.
Sitting still, waiting for the answers to come, I've been watching a lot of good movies.
Of course, I'm supposed to be getting my writing done. Somehow writing turned into this horrible way to poke at my problems and make fun of them. But the way poetry works--hiding things, semantics blur and syntax breaks things apart--makes me a little too reliant on taking my time.
I am reading through, um, Robert Lowell... all the while telling myself I am working.
A blog is a consolation to my inside editor, and good practice at a bad habit... did you read Harriet the Spy? You have to at least go look at it. The book is such a heartbreak. Let me know what you think of amazon's new features. I haven't yet decided if I like it, especially when my computer wouldn't allow me to link you to the sneak peak page... which is really nice.
helpful | By crymytinyflood | 05:23 PM
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Posted by: crymytinyflood at Julio 31, 2005 09:23 AM
Concerning not knowing what you want...When you were a child, you always knew what you wanted (lobster dinner at Disneyland, mayonnaise on your hotdog...) but that was easy because the only person you had to worry about was yourself. As an adult, you have made a committment to someone else and all of a sudden, his wants and desires seem, dare I say, more important than yours. It's not something you really think about it just happens. One night you're thinking, "I really want to just sit down in front of the TV with a bowl of hummus and watch Napoleon for the 800th time." Then it happens, the other option enters, "He likes hot dogs and Simpsons." The next thing you know, you're in the kitchen hot dogs hot, shaking the mustard so you don't end up with yellow water on your shirt and you feel peaceful, this is what you wanted all along. Somehow, doing what he wants is what you want.
All of our decisions as adults seem more complicated somehow. Whether we are taking into account our family, budget, time, space, credo, etc...It is hard to decide to want something just because we want it with no strings attached. When we finally do take the leap and sign the dotted line, it is much more fulfilling to know that whatever we choose, is chosen because of what is important to us and reflects who we are.
And you're right, grape soda is never a good decision.
Posted by: Sarai at Julio 29, 2005 10:40 PM
