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Marzo 03, 2008
when to say when
i may have told you this before but i've been on the roster at quite a few schools.
two preschools
presby kids
mudpies
one grammar
Harmony School,
one middle school
Salmon Creek Middle School.
El Molino High School
Shorecrest High School
Meadowdale High School
Edmonds Community College
Santa Rosa Junior College
Bethany Bible College
St. Mary's College
El Diablo Valley College
Sonoma State University
San Francisco State University
San Jose State University
Mars Hill Graduate school
read'em and weep.
over the past seven years i have taught at
Bryant Elementary
Campolindo High School
Fairmount Elementary
Jackson Elementary
Little Sonshine Preschool
Phinney Ridge Lutheran Church, ELCA
somewhere in there between schools, when
i was a barista or
a landscaper's assistant or when
i sold designer jeans or when
i was a cook at the summer camp,
i harnessed the power of a lateral lisp,
i buried a few friends and relatives,
got married and
wrote a pretty good poem or two.
so now you know my qualifications, i want to tell you something that you may not learn at anyoneschoolinparticular:
somebody really important in my littleworld, somebody who has a two year old son who sang to me holy holy holy
told me today that
sometimes i don't have to do what i don't want to do, which is sort of like last year when somebody else told me that
sometimes trying harder is not the answer.
i think this falls under the category of learning when to say when or learning about enjambment and also under the heading of seeing the past redeemed.
i just thought you might like to see it all here in lines and circles. maybe,
seeing it
written down like
a prescription or
a contract or
a receipt or
a love letter
makes it easier to refer to when you wonder what the hell is going on around here. and why i have finally landed, even though it ought to be about time for me to participate in commencement or transfer out, or something like that--i mean, two years at the same school is a long time for someone like me.
and if you want to know
why i do what i do, or
why i like what i like or
why i don't have what people call "kids of my own", or
why i am suddenly discovering
that having boundaries is a lot like having
a superpower
i think this might help to answer those questions too...
i'm already doing the best i can and i have a sneaking suspicion
that you might be too, so i'm pretty damn thankful--
confused, but thankful.
and since it is lent and we aren't so say all*l%&!, i won't, but i'm thinking it, and God knows and that is probably OK.
helpful | By crymytinyflood | 11:09 AM
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