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22 de Julio 2008
how to: (keep) saying goodbye
[i've said goodbye to so many people, i guess that is why you called. and you remembered that i might know how to be a good friend or at least what i want from one. so i wrote this little poem because it usually helps and i put it here, just in case it helps you to feel (better?) too. I mean, i really did cry when you mentioned the ranch dressing memories, and then i thought, very quickly, how can i be crying over ranch dressing?]
when it happened they said,
she won't be writing any more letters.
she won't be calling or leaving messages or riding in your car or making plans.
but you will.
i keep going over the why in my mind
(kneading it, like a sore part in my heart, hoping it will relax and stop hurting me.)
even if you don't and one day i wake up and see that
you kept going even if i tried to make you stop.
how do we separate out all the friends and lovers and family members?
how do we organize them
so each gets the same number of sad memories or wild prospects?
over the phone
i told you how these things make me wish i had never moved away from you, never broke your heart,
i wish we could do this together
and wade again in the same creek(bed), as if the water had never moved on.
is that what she would say, is that what you want
to hear or tell even the saddest of her friends?:
i wish your heart didn't have to be broken
and what did you say to me?
you can have it all.
just ask me.
just tell me what you want (you never said need) and i will give it to you.
i've never done this before,
you said,
knowing
that it is the only way
i know to make friends,
and you asked me for help.
just in case | By crymytinyflood | 3:56 PM
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