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16 de Septiembre 2008
all the crashing, thrashing and the dreams
martin dropped his bike yesterday because he wasn't really paying attention as well as he could have.
and he is fine, but i am not.
the what ifs are getting me down today.
i want a husband who never crashes the car. who never burns the toast, who never waits too long or hopes too big.
i want a man who never flexes his intellectual muscle just to show off, who can't always answer the questions or minimize the chaos. i want to never worry about him and never cry when he breaks my hopes in half over his knee like a twig. i want a husband who knows when to have a baby and when to flip the pancakes, who knows all about interpersonal relationships and countertransference and how to say i love you when it matters most.
but that might not happen, even to me.
and even though i hopehopehope i can't deal with desire or identity in the helpful ways.
and then one dream wakes up, even while another lay there thrashing like a fish on the boat deck:
yesterday as i was washing my hands in the third floor bathroom a very pretty woman looked me over and asked "are you the poet?"
what could i say?
i have the crazy hair and disheveled look about me, i have the logical lover and the broken down dog. the funny old car, racking up parking tickets on the street outside the accreditation defying graduate school. and god knows i drink enough beer and i can tame a shot of wild turkey with ease which is as much to say i write when i'm drunk and beg for mercy when i'm sober
so i said yes. and laughed a little, not even shyly and definitely not at her.
because i have always wanted that sort of thing to happen... i have always dreamed you would have known i was a poet before you even knew my name.
along those lines
i'll be participating in another sort of mars hill attempt to save the world.
Free Form is a safe, open place to share creative expression. A night of music, poetry, and good people. Come express yourself or merely sit and enjoy the beauty.
Saturday September 27th at the Green Bean Coffee House. (210 N. 85th Seattle, WA)
8:00 - 11:00 p.m. Come early to get a good seat.
There will be 16 open mic slots (come early to sign up for a spot) and we will have three featured performers:
John Burkhardt and Holly Grisby - amazing musicians from MHGS. And also Seattle spoken word legend Rajnii Eddins will be featured.
Coffee, tea, pastries, and desserts will be available.
All proceeds and/or donations at Free Form will support Pilgrim - Uganda's Move on Malaria. Please come and support this incredible movement.
Email Andrew Bauman at Abraveheart21@aol.com with any questions.
thank you
| By crymytinyflood | 4:47 PM
