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18 de Noviembre 2008
if you let yourself
feel all the things there are to feel,
you would feel so awful you wouldn't want to put yourself in a position to love unless you knew it was really valuable, and this would be honoring of the pain of your previous experiences. you would value how awful you're going to feel after all is said and done in love and sex, you would figure that the worst pain is much more important than the simple disappointment you are setting yourself up for in this fun sexy time you've got going on right now. you would turn and face the searing, burning anger and frustration and the real love that caused it because the love, and the feelings are valuable. but for now you are satisfied trading in the feelings you fear for the sort of yucky (but not that bad) feelings you are setting yourself up for by messing about in the shallow end.
i'm just saying is all.
and the worst part is that you may have to wait a few days, or even years until you are ready for all this... so the monastery life starts to seem inevitable to a degree.
help yourself | By crymytinyflood | 8:16 PM
