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Octubre 26, 2006
it is pretty
damn cold here
(insert dipthongs at will)
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Octubre 12, 2006
not about murder
i probably need to redraw the images i have of myself slapping certain people across the face... i don't think slapping counts as "holding the tension" (welcome to the world of allenderisms).
is slapping like murder? thinking it is as good as doing it, and all that... i think so... i think there is something in the bible about committing murder by thinking mean thoughts, wink wink. its kind of like adultery in that sense.
so thinking these thoughts is pretty bad because i would never ever murder anyone, i don't even like to watch a movie if there is a gun in it.
violence violence everywhere...
and so i ask you with a tone of fear, as if i am asking about my pants making my butt look big:
does this blog make me look nice?
don't answer that.
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Octubre 05, 2006
dr.why
dr. roy barsness says that if we are having a forum you have to stand to address the group.
here is the short version of my most recent outburst:
when i became a little upset i stood up and said that i'm not really sure what evil is but i think we are getting pretty close by trying to cut it into slices and tell each other that homosexuals got the biggest portion.
and then someone stood up and said that she wanted to invite anyone who is homosexual or poverty stricken to speak.
i became enlivened by rage, that special kind i have when i want to know exactly who the hell you think you are to invite someone to speak.
i have never been more angry in a class.
until
a woman stood up and said that she identifies herself as gay.
... and poverty stricken, and murderous and a whore.
so i stood up and tried not to look like i was talking right to her as i said you can say what you want but i don't believe you.
roy stood up and all he said was "why?"
(it was turning into a real nightmare, real quick)
i said i have been in a lot of places in my life, i can say i have been a lot of things, can say that i understand you, but then, in a flash, it can all disappear and suddenly
(we are studying buber so you know i had to bring in the pronouns)
i am not you and you are not me.
and you know how my voice gets when i am angry; of course it sounded like each word felling its own tree.
i have been feeling like i was too hard on the whole situation.
but i also think that i am one of those people who has opinions and i don't know exactly how to deal with them. should i have held it all in and then let it all out at home, where it wouldn't have done those people any good? maybe it didn't do them any good anyway.
should i have waited until after class call her a liar to her face? should i have used nicer words and sugar coated it so maybe she wouldn't understand it?
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