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Diciembre 30, 2007
short cut
sometimes a hair cut is the answer.
just consider it.
it is often more helpful than not.
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Diciembre 20, 2007
I Hate Christmas.
and that is OK.
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Diciembre 10, 2007
i'm right
where i'm supposed to be.
and that doesn't happen very often.
and i know this because i am somehow finally able to write essays again. and it really (and i'm being honest now so proceed cautiously)
it really doesn't matter to me if the professors like the essays because i am getting to the bottom of things and feeling satisfied by the way the paragraphs end. the titles make me hopeful and the last paragraphs make me stop and then i want to read the whole thing over again even though i just spent two weeks writing it.
i am finally getting the writing done.
and the good grades might be nice but i think it was better than an A today when we got into the church van to leave the motel ministry and PHoff raised both fists triumphantly in the air and proclaimed, "I love my job!" and i felt partially responsible because i was the one who told him it was his turn to read a story and when he asked if he was in charge of singing i said, "yes, yes you are."
and i'll be damned if we didn't sing every single Christmas song he could think of, plus away in a manger because he looked at me like i ought to have more singing to do.
so, remember bitchbitchbitch and i was sure i would never finish? well i did it. you can read it in the extended entry.
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Diciembre 07, 2007
add
vent:
it has been a terrible week. the kind of week that comes so close to Christmas.
things are so much worse in December: it is colder and people are trying so hard to buy the right thing, send the right card, not eat too many cookies, not burn down the house, feed and clothe the homeless.
so you lost your advent calendar? perfect. here is what you do: just go into the kitchen and each night before bed open up a different cabinet door, or open up a different box (cereal crackers cookies). your life is an advent calendar; open another door today and peek inside at who is hiding behind it. wake up and open your eyes. who is there today? day seven is about to end, what did you find behind another door day?
advent is my favorite part of this whole Christmessy time.
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Diciembre 04, 2007
little woman
Dear Emma,
the whispers of loved ones are unquieted tonight.
We will all bury the dead along the way. But will we also bury parts of ourselves?
the strongest parts?
and how will we mourn?
with tears and screams?
sheets spread in the wind, basements flood with inches of water.
sisters marry, cats purr.
lace turns brown and light bulbs pop when they are giving up.
things around are full of life, full of the winds and rain that come with December.
Advent is here. but i have given up smoking; how will i wait for the Christ child now? how will i keep myself warm among the dripping awnings and bus stops?
how will i wait?
how old will i be when i finally grow up?
i love you, and i hope you won't drink too much... and when your dreams come true you will get your washer and dryer back; i have faith in those kind of things... appliances and basements and double paned windows.
whatever makes it home, that is what i will believe in, that is where my heart waits for the christ
the baby in the hay.
Abigail
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